Sleep Paralysis

2009-02-02T18:17:00.000-08:00

I would like to tell any reader a story of my experience with this syndrome. I have had this as long as I can remember and it effects me almost the same every time. I look for connections and remember the experience as well as possible. If you don't know what sleep paralysis is, it is the condition in which your mind is awake and yet your body is not. You are unable to move and most likely terrified. Here is one of my experiences:

A few weeks ago my wife and I went to go visit some family. I had slept good for the fist few nights, going to sleep at round 10:00pm-10:30pm and waking at 8:00am. One night, my wife and I shared a small amount of vanilla ice cream and chocolate. At about 10:30pm we all went to sleep. As I was laying there, I felt it. Having Sleep paralysis my whole life, I can tell when it is going to hit. At first I got tired, I had the craving to close my eyes and drift slowly off into dream land. I also know when it will hit because the first time I even close my eyes I see, hear and feel it. It's a flash at first. Like someone giving you a static shock. This first shock made me jump and open my eyes. Soon the same feeling of tiredness started to overwhelm me and I closed my eyes again this time longer. This usually repeats a few times until the sleep paralysis completely takes hold. It does, I see feel and hear strange things that are unexplainable. At first the flash and strange sounds start to drum through my mind. I feel a pressure and a terror not being able to move. I had heard others describe it as something holding you down. I always feel as if something is watching me, waiting. I try to move but I can not.

(Sometimes between the state of flashing images and terror I get a chance to take control of my mind. I can only describe it as being able to move without moving. I can get up, walk around the room, even go to the sink for water. I always end back up in bed, and there, only there it grips me.)

I truly can not explain in words most of what happens in this time. Partially because it is indescribable and because I simply can not remember. What I do remember and can describe is being clutched by fear, humbled by sights, and dampened by sounds. Generally I see faces about 2-3 inches form me. I hear uninterpretable voices and languages I can not understand. The feeling is what I can remember most of all. The only way I can describe it is as someone holding your head underwater. You try and struggle and move but you can not break the feeling that if you stay in this state you will loose something. I have always chosen to fight it and break it. I have never let it grasp me completely or except it. The way I break it is I inhale slowly and exhale very fast. I do this multiple times and finally I am free, awake and have not moved an inch. My wife is still asleep beside me as is nothing had happened. I look up and I always see something. I will describe it as a "rift". This rift is different as far as what it is but the same as how it happens. It would be similar if you looked at something bright and then closed your eyes. You can still see some of the light but black all around. In my case I usually see a room(Looking into) pan by this open rift with the room(that I am in) all around it. If I try to go to sleep right away I will fall back into the sleep paralysis. I will generally sit up and wait about 15 min and then I will sleep fine until the morning.

I have done research and come to believe that DMT is responsible for this. If I eat certain foods too close to when I am about to sleep the natural by product that is produced in every human induces this.

Background on me:
between 20-25 yrs
Male
About 5'11
190lbs
Regular diet
Take vitimens
Get 8 hours of sleep a night
History of hereditary sleep paralysis and Dejavu

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